Thursday, May 20, 2010

Restoring the balance.

Do you ever feel like time is running out?
Like soon enough, because you've been so sheltered, something's going to happen?
Something bad.

Soon enough.
I'm think going to hurt myself in soccer, and badly too because all the times I've come close to hurting myself, and haven't, those times have been building up to something big, and one day I'll hurt myself badly, break my leg or something like that.
Or that because I've been sheltered form all the bad things in life, because nothing bad has ever really happened to me or anyone close to me.
All those bad things that should have happened.
Are being collected by some unseen force, adding up.
And one day they will be unleashed.
The balance will be restored.
And all the bad things will pour out.
And into my life.

6 comments:

NabilaHazirah said...

i know this feeling. it freaks me out sometimes.
but i guess the best way is to just think positively. :)

thank you so much for tagging me. i'll post it soon.

xx

Smileyfreak said...

I can't say I feel like this but I hope that thinking positively helps you! :)

Lilah said...

i feel the same way.
all too often.
i left a large comments here yesterday but forgot to type in the letters that seal the deal.
i can't really remember what i said but i remember the quote i put in.
oh dear i can't find the book.
oh well.
It was from Before I Die, by Jenny Downham. Have you read it?
It's beautiful and sad and inspirational.

Sometimes, I'm scared when I feel like this.
How can your friend's mum die suddenly while your whole family remains unscathed?

It would be selfish of me to keep all the goodness.
Besides everyone knows the only way to experience life fully is to embrace every single aspect of it.
the good and the bad.
we just haven't lived yet.

And knowing that we have to is very scary.

Lilah said...

p.s. i hope you read my latest post.
you and somegirl were the reason i wrote it.


and thanks for tagging me xx

Some Girl said...

YES. I'm getting this feeling a lot right now because this is officially my last summer at home and in a year I'm graduating.. It's SO WEIRD. I feel like something's looming.

Melee said...

I feel all the time like time is slipping away and I wish I could stop it so I could think for a second. But it keeps on running no matter how hard I plea.
I feel like bad things are going to happen to... I think we humans are too paranoid.