And I know you won't ask me
but I'd say yes every time.
You hide your hands
ashamed of the damage
they could do
but I tell you to go ahead
there's nothing you could do
to me that I haven't already
done to myself.
Once is not enough
I need to love you everyday
to the moon and back
and further
til my eyes are blazing with it.
Don't worry about your own hands
mine can tear you apart
just fine

 

 

(this image is not mine, I couldn't find the original source)

Mary Oliver wrote 'he is exactly the poem I wanted to write' and it's true, there is no-one else that could be made into a poem as intriguing as him.
If I could write him as a poem, I would start it with one letter, because I think the fact that his nickname is a single letter is fascinating and I think about being called M and hearing the sound of my initial curling from his lips.
If I could write him as a poem, I would put something about us having mutually curly hair and the fact that he has no pictures of himself in his profile pictures and I'd marvel about what that means.
If I could write him as a poem, I would mention that we sat next to each other in a graduation ceremony over a year ago and how I thought his nickname was his actual name and how interesting I thought that was.
If I could write him as a poem, I would write about how he works at the video shop near my house and how he's always so lovely there.
If I could write him as a poem, I'd finish it with Yours, M.

Back to normal

In four days I will be finished Uni for the year and I can post things on here again. Things have been so hectic the past few months so I just can't wait to be free of the work :)

I was afraid to post writing on here because if I then submitted it as part of an assessment, the university assessment submission would say that I plagarised it from myself...and I didn't really feel like explaining to them.

Baby photos

Helping dad fix the lawnmower :)

I got really sick when I was little and had to stay in hospital for a while :(

Little monkeys :)

I just love looking at old baby photos, there's nothing like the feeling you get when seeing your younger self looking so happy, and I was a pretty cute little thing I must say haha :)

Yesterday I bought myself roses,

because everyone deserves

to be given flowers

every once in a while

even if

they have to buy them

for themselves.

( I accidently took these motion photos on my phone while trying to take a photo of the roses and write an essay, but I kind of like it :) )

If I could have the names tattooed on my skin
of all the people I have ever loved,
whether fiercely or simply
because of a single glance
exchanged across a crowd,
or the brush of fingertips
accidentally exchanged
across a table.
Then maybe when I die
they will look at my body
and say she loved many,
and if the reasons I loved them,
were there as well,
then my entire body
shall be covered with ink -
evidence of love
and being loved,
proof of a life
lived in love
shall be written
all over my skin.

I will show you fear in a handful of dust.
- T. S. Elliot

I will love where I am right now.